You know you have hit rock bottom when the whole world stops making sense…….

I just want to be happy again, i just want to stop hurting, but i can’t.  

I have known all my life that everyone has defining moments, moments that change your life, and moments where everything has to start over.  But for the first time ever i have come to all three at once.  How do you know what to do when everything that you have known for years is suddenly gone?  How can you know what to do when you can’t think straight?  What do you do when you feel everything you were prepared for in life and everything you expected from life are just gone? 

Whoever said “life isn’t fare” didn’t know how right they truely were…..

There are just some moments in life where you stop and think, is love a real thing?  Or is it made up, and if it is are we really just searching our whole lives for something we will never find? I hate thinking this way but i can’t help it anymore.  i have spent my life watching beautiful love stories and have deluded myself into thinking things like that could happen.  i wanna look at the bright side of everything…but i am just at a cross roads in my life right now where i either need to change me, or i need to find a reason to keep hoping for happiness.